break dance not hearts

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he died.

much faster than expected apparently.

=/ there were a lot of things i wanted to say.
and i didnt get to say goodbye.

but hes a lot better as a spirit in my ear then a dying man in a bed.

picture from oyster bay!

( picturesss!! )

so as of today i go out with Jesse.
and hes pretty fucking cute if i do say so myself.


and he makes me pretty happy.

Today was cute.
To sum it up:
I wake up at 1, go to my grandmas, and end up at chandras three times with different combinations of people each time. Somehow most days I end up laying down at her house at least once. haha.
Theres nothing to do in this town but cruise around and even that gets old. Good thing I have good people to do it with.
in 23 days I'll be going to seattle. I wonder how they will treat me. last time they kind of acted like I was a little kid. Maybe now they realize I'm not. Even though I'm only 16 I know I'm a lot more mature than that.
My grandpa and I disagree on a lot of things.

I ask questions just because I like to hear the answers I already know.

I've been in a really good mood lately, I think the formula for happiness is:
constant james + amazing friends + my camera - school=♥

note to self: stop skipping so much school, and procrastination is not your friend.

last night one of my heroes stared me in the eye.




elaboration later.

I AM NOT A PIECE OF SHIT.

i would appreciate it if you would stop telling me i am, dad.

i have:
an ear infection, in both ears=). in the one year im like, deaf i can't hear anything.
I have bronchitis, and I have slight pneumonia.

omg yayy.


I'm a big ball of helplessness lately.

=[

1. reply with your name and i will write something i like about you.
2. i will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
4. i'll tell you the most memorable moment i've had with you.
5. i will tell you what color you remind me of.
6. i'll then tell you something that i've always wondered about you.

and do the same for me=[

i just spent an hour of my life writing a fucking sonnet.

AWE I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT.
/pouts.

I am an addict, to green tea, to broken hearts, to music, to love, to kissing, to words, to daydreams.

hey, at least its not cocaine.

"you're kidding yourself"

dear designer friends. I need to redo my room and I was inspired by mo to make a post like this and ask for help.

( so help. )

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. Who is with you?
mike.

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
coyote,

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
I sit and watch it while is walks around between the trees.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your DREAM house. how big is it?
very quaint.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
no need for a fence.

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining room table. What do you see on AND around it?
flowers in a vase, two chairs.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
a bright blue cup.

8. What do you do with the cup?
leave it. ill come back to it later.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What kind of body of water is it?
its a cute little pond, with coy fish in it.

10. How will you cross the water?
I don't, I sit by it.


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1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important person in your life.
Maybe.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.
A coyote is relatively large haha.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.
i justw atch my problems, and dont do anything to fix them or interrupt the flow in my life.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.
haha obviously i dont care much about problems

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.
i love when people come over randomly.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.
ii am happy and i had flowers.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.
its plastic. yay.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.
"fuck it"

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.
haha.

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.
i expect to sit on my ass and live easy.